Let Me Leave These Pains!!!!

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It still makes me crazy and down. I just think of many things. About him, and about my life. It’s such a boring and an unfair life for me. I’m tired with everything. I really want to stop it, but I know it’s just an impossible thing. I want to cry. To let all of my sadness flow with my tears. But, it’s very hard for me to cry. I’m just able to hurt myself. I know, it’s useless. But it’s just the thing that I can do to treat my sadness.

I can’t run and let him go. I can’t forget every detail of our memory. I can’t erase every minute that we passed together. I really loose my direction. I don’t know where to go. And I don’t have any place to take some rest for all of this damn situation. And I don’t have anyone to share with.

Is it hard to fulfill my pray, Dear God? I just want to be happy in my whole life? Is it difficult for you? I know, perhaps, this is my way to walk on. But it’s too hard for me. It doesn’t suit with my strength.

I’m tired. I’m tired. I’m tired. I’m tired. I’m tired. I’m tired. I’m tired.